Creature Comforts
Sunday, December 2, 2007
2:43 PM

I had arrived to the Sun Gate by mid morning. Mika had been left a missive to meet me there upon my arrival. My initial plan was to have breakfast in the Square, and bring Pontius along, but my point-man had other plans. Rumor is he's caught a fancy to an inn owner, and he wished to have his breakfast in bed I imagine. I can't say as I blame him. We were gone a while, and the nights were cold.
When I found Mika, he was being absconded by a whore. She wore no collar, my guess is that she was a prostitute of the free variety. Who pays for sex with free women? When women like portia prowl the city streets. Foolish, but in any event, I lost my temper. She was conducted harshly from the street and into the waiting arms of a fellow selling tastas. I blame myself, my exhaustion, and general physical discomfort. I am not perfect.
I decided to return to his estate, allowing even that he transport me by one of his carriages. Generally I frown upon anything so frivolous, but it was a longer walk than I felt like taking. I allowed him too, to take care of me that night. I bathed. I did not eat. But I did sleep, and allowed myself the luxury of closeness. But his ostraka can be revoked at any time. He has not sworn to my Home Stone. He is no citizen of my heart, nor my body. But for one night I let my guard down. I needed the reprieve. I do not know when another will come.
I worry at times. I cannot let Mika fall in love with me, for his own good. Nor can I allow myself to become beholden to him. I won't be tethered. I refuse. No amount of trust, and no amount of love, can change the nature of things that need to roam to be content.
"You are either restless or sleeping," he jested. It is an accurate observation. I like Mika. I suppose that is why I hold him at arm's length.
I left early the next morning to find Szol. We had much to talk about. There is salt to find.
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