My Haunted Head
Thursday, February 21, 2008
8:44 AM

I stood in the kitchen of the Savant Estate the morning past. It was well before dawn, neither Shane nor Mika were awake. In those wee ahns, I found a certain solace as I contemplated the path ahead of me. A letter had been sent to Aria Fori, inviting Venor and his Scarlet woman to the Temple. I am not sure why I wished them there for the unveiling. Certainly it was dangerous for them. Perhaps I value them enough to give them truth. Truth is a gift, even if a bitter one at times.
I could feel the presence at my back. The room gets cold, and a chill sinks down my spine and permeates over my skin suddenly. The air gets heavy, laden with energy that makes my skin prick. It is always the way when the Patron of Mika's Estate comes to me. Some times he speaks to my mind's eye. Other times he shows me what he sees. This day, he merely stood on the bottom of the back steps and stared with those eyes. I think he knew what my plans were for the day. I wonder what he would have done with Ar, had he still lived.
I imagine in life he was a tundra of a man as well. Cold, harsh, critical. I can't say I've ever been truly afraid of any man in my life. Nor will I say I fear the Patron. Alive or dead. Still, I find the erecting of the new Estate on the outter lot something I am anxious for. He is not pleased with my presence in his house. I can't say as I blame him. Further, I know he does not approve of my closness to his heir. At night he paces the hall outside our room, so angry that even the Madonna and Child take shelter from his wrath.
The lavendar and sage that burns in the fire place keeps him out of Mika's chamber, and for the most part out of my dreams. The rest of the house however is fair game. I only hope he hasn't attached himself to me, or Mika. When I eventually move, I do not want him following. I am haunted by my own demons, without taking on familial ones of generations past.
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